im sorry

i listened to the wrong "friends"
and got you out of my life
im happy how things worked out for you
and i know i wouldnt have been able to give all that to you
so i dont regret anything
but .. really i am sorry if i made you suffer
but now you're much stronger
and can give all your love to her
i wish you the best
happiness and nothing less

allies

it seems that people feel more secure when they have allies
allies like friends, bf, gf.... etc.
an ally can even be a stranger or an enemy
theyre the people that you feel that they understand you
the people that you can run to for help
even when you really dont need it
it seems to me that sometimes allies can aid you and thinking that others are agaisnt you even if there isnt such people, but just thinking that, makes both of you turn to each other
thats when you start feeling that you only have each other and that everyone is criticising you
and that no one wants you to be happy
that no one gets you
you start feeling that this person will always be there
all of a sudden you lose contact with your other allies
... because you think you dont need them,
you only have time for your new ally
you only share things with them,
you have no eyes for anyone else
and what happens when your new ally trades you for a newer ally?
then you will have no one

the new gets old

I like new places
most of the time usually
because they can be different
but after a while,
you get used to it and its not a new place anymore, you get used to everything
you get used to the people and its not so exciting anymore, not as much anyway

maybe its just me..
i get tired of things easily.... sometimes of people too
specially those who i start to date,
its so nice in the beginning,
then it gets boring....
maybe its just those particular people...

who knows..?