do things really happen for a reason??

In life things happen.. and we try to think of them as lessons.
Sometimes we learn from these "lessons" but other times we keep makin the same mistakes.
But do things really happen for a reason..?
people think so.. but could it be .. to lessen the pain??
for instance.. if a a boy breaks up with a girl, the girl might say.. well things happen for a reason... To not make her feel guilty? If she had been different .. could they still be together ?? Or because.. things really happen for a reason and that reason is to learn from that break up and still keep looking?

i used to think that things happened for a reason.. but lately.. thats not exactly what i think.. is it that i can be.. a little insecure? or .. what is it really?
i dont blame myself for the break up
but both.. could it be that.. we werent just meant for each other
but why.. after exactly a yr ago.. he came back?

how does that quote go?
when u let the person you love and he comes back.. then he really was yours?
or somethin like that??
Well i cant say i love him.. but i do care deeply about him
its an undescribable feelin i have for him
but has been diminishing day by day... i think it could be
to lessen the pain that hes not with me anymore.
but maybe because ive realized that he doesnt want to be with me as much as i want to be with him

sometimes we need a moment that has to hit us hard.. for us to realize things.. Moments.. that can open our eyes..
and i had that moment not too long ago.. and thats when i said.. i quit
i dont want to be the one who keeps askin him to go out.. or anything, if he did.. he probably would have asked me already .
so i Quit

so i talked to my x today
about nothin in particular..
but bout random things..
when he was bout to leave
we started talkin bout me.. and work...
and well it felt good
to kno..
what he .... was interested...
but!
yeah theres a but

but later.. .. like i was tellin him somethin.. about him commentin me on myspace
(silly .. yes i kno)
he just said.. well i got to go ... bye
like cuttin me off or soemthin

everything was cool except for that..
my last thought.. of him before takin a nap before work!!!
ugh
good nite to me

so the same guy i talked to u last about
the one.. that talks to me.. fine one day
and another acts if im botherin
talks to me again
like nothing..
am i readin too much into it..??
or.... does he just have issues??

have u ever felt as if...
ur "friends" only talk to u cus they need somethin
is that what it really shuld be about

i once believed i had a great friend...
till she got a bf.. and now she only talks to me... when theyre havin problems..
or when she needs something
and cus im a good friend.. im there...
but... what bout when i need her..

well somethings just work this way....
would it be so selffish of me.. to just forget bout the friendship...??
or just think of it as an interest friendship

in my communication class the professor.. named about three different types of friends...

as soon as i find my notebook with the notes.. ill let ya knoe
;)

so i find it so hard to understand men..
and well the better thing to do now.. is to not try to undertand them.. but just live with em..
well u understand what i mean right?

so theres this guy that i was with .. he was my bf... for maybe not even a month.. we just stopped talkin after a couple of weeks..
i would occasionally IM him.. just to.. say whats up or see how he was doin
cus well that i thought .. we hadnt ended in bad terms.. but he would hardly answer.. or ... "had to leave" or whatever other excuse one can use..
so.. after.. ... prolly after close to 8 months we start talkin.. well actually just IMsgn like good friends.. after not really talkin ... and it was almost everyday for a while
and we would do things like .. when we .. were together..
we would watch the same show..and talk bout in online and stuff like that

then after a couple of weeks of that.. he seems like he doesnt want to talk to me.. so im like..
we started talkin after how long.. and now u just want to stop.. and i dont really see a reason
but... again.. i cant understand things he does....

a couple of hours ago i was sitting eatin dinner with my family and after my pregnant sister wanted a funnel cake.. which ive never had one before... but.. whatever
so she wanted to go to the fair near our house at a park
and i remembered how each year we used to go there as a family.. well except last yr..
my family was goin through not so good times..
and my mom was workin so i went with a friend
but anyways..
i remembered it been so much bigger.. and more people.. and all good..
i was tellin my sister as we were walkin to it..
and she said ... well we were just younger..

its so true... that when ur younger.. everything seems so big.. and wonderful
and when u get older..
its not quite the same

well we didnt find funnel cakes.. so my sister now has to eat.. a funnel cake.. maybe ihop tomorrow.. they have some..