Green pasta!!

Last night, I found myself tossing and turning. I was unable to sleep until an hour later..
and I guess I had plans for today, double booking? haha
but I did end up doing something. I went to school got a new id, and bought the trolley pass,
and got to hang out with a friend!
we had subway at the beach, and shopped around for a bit
such a good day!
I had a 50 cent hot dog at Ikea. so good since i has starving!

my legs are in pain tho, I'm not used to walking, and yeah haha
ooh and we met some guys on the bus, that were from Ohio apparently they had just bought their tickets for SD the night before.

when I came home, there was nothing to eat, well not prepared anyway
so I decided to make some rice, white rice this time.
I tried making Cilantro-lime Rice the other day and it came out decent, but not everyone liked it. Today, I made Cilantro and Parsley pesto and added it to some freshly cooked pasta.
It was so GOOD!
everyone liked it!!


Today, I woke up early and I'm glad I did because I got to do so many things!

ooh we also visited a library and they were having a book sale!
I bought two books for my lil nephew and one for myself and perhaps to share it with a few others. It is called, "No Body's Perfect"
awesome title by Kimberly Kirberger.
All three books for 3.50.. good bargain huh

guilt trip?

How can some people still attempt to make someone feel guilty when they want something, instead of using a different approach?
i guess it is because.. thats how they have gotten things go their way,
and well it doesn't really work with me tho.

I have a guy friend that wanted to 'hang out' tonight, and according to him, he wanted to spend time with me since it was his night off. But he couldn't even manage to have a 5 minute conversation over the phone. We hardly ever have things to talk about, and it always comes down, to how I have acted in the past, after repeatedly telling him to let it go.

I am glad that I was able to say no tonight,
and I feel that I need to find new people to really chill with and hopefully they won't have expectations that I will not fulfill.

Looking back at the "men" in my life, hardly any have really been there for me,
and the ones that have, I have managed to push them away.
so keeping that in mind, I will not be too attached with them, and I'll move on and I'm sure they will too, sooner that me perhaps.

to my fisherman

I know nothing about fishing, but with you I am learning.

You know exactly when to pull me back and when to throw me back out.
It seems that every action is planned on your behalf and you know my reaction before I do.
Is it all a game to you, or do you care enough to throw me back out for good?

1st exam scores

It could only mean one thing, biology is not my forte.
Last week was my first week of midterms, like the usual, i didn't study as much as I should.
I managed to get an 81 my Food and Culture class, a 76 in Nutrition 201 and a 46% in my Biology Class, my quiz i got a 72% I think.
Good thing is that we will have 4 exams and the lowest score will be dropped, I just hope that my scores don't go any lower than the 46.
I like biology, but the class is so fast paced that its overwhelming.

What i need to start doing, is working really hard during the week.. so i can have my weekends off and not feel guilty for not studying.

my plan..

my plan was to make ppl like me so i can then turn them down
maybe my last "relationship" made me a lil crazie
but i met this guy.. who i was just goin to turn him down the first time he talked to me
but i realized that he kinda went out of his way..
(runnin to reach me)
so i decided to give him a chance
after all i knew how it feels when you ask someone to hang out and they cant
cus they're seen someone else...
so after a couple of dates
he kissed me
i just let that happen twice after the second time..
i said no more kisses and turned my head
i like him but as a friend
i dont want a relationship
and neither do i want just another "friend"

so then it got me thinkin of my plan
it was a stupid plan
i dont want to hurt someone just because i got hurt
so forget the plan
i have another date tonite
so we'll see what happens....

im sorry

i listened to the wrong "friends"
and got you out of my life
im happy how things worked out for you
and i know i wouldnt have been able to give all that to you
so i dont regret anything
but .. really i am sorry if i made you suffer
but now you're much stronger
and can give all your love to her
i wish you the best
happiness and nothing less

allies

it seems that people feel more secure when they have allies
allies like friends, bf, gf.... etc.
an ally can even be a stranger or an enemy
theyre the people that you feel that they understand you
the people that you can run to for help
even when you really dont need it
it seems to me that sometimes allies can aid you and thinking that others are agaisnt you even if there isnt such people, but just thinking that, makes both of you turn to each other
thats when you start feeling that you only have each other and that everyone is criticising you
and that no one wants you to be happy
that no one gets you
you start feeling that this person will always be there
all of a sudden you lose contact with your other allies
... because you think you dont need them,
you only have time for your new ally
you only share things with them,
you have no eyes for anyone else
and what happens when your new ally trades you for a newer ally?
then you will have no one